Anubis Metaphysics

Author: Steve Beale

  • Drugs are the Love

    Drugs are the Love

    Space
    Space

    MDMA for couples’ therapy: 4/4 octopuses can’t be wrong

    Ithell Colquhoun, ‘Song of Songs’ via Unit London
    Ithell Colquhoun, ‘Song of Songs’ via Unit London

    Can the inner healer mend a broken relationship?

    Next up for MAPS therapy program designers Dr Michael Meithofer and his wife Annie AKA ‘Annie and Michael’ in spacespeak, is MDMA for couples’ counselling.

    “We knew that MDMA was useful for communication… and some of the other anecdotal things about it,” Annie told none other than Professor David Nutt on the Drug Science podcast (where you can hear Dr Nutt, the David Attenborough of drugs, a UK national treasure say ‘Back to the show!’)

    Annie collaborated on the initial research for a new era in MDMA couples’ therapy with Toronto’s Dr Anne Wagner. The Remedy clinic director has come up during further investigations into juicy subjects two weeks in a row (sync). Last week it was in a call for further research into psychedelic treatment for borderline personality disorder (BPD).

    Yet Dr Wagner is not the only intrepid sailor of the soul cooking up excellent experiments using ecstasy. John Hopkins’ university neuroscience department, not to be outdone, gave E to octopuses. They’d noticed ‘that octopuses and humans had nearly identical genomic codes for the transporter that binds the neurotransmitter serotonin to the neuron’s membrane.’

    The California double-spot octopus is a solitary creature, barely interacting with others of its kind besides once a year, briefly, for mating. Even then the male uses a sex arm and it looks like mid-air refuelling. 

    Would you believe though, that when researchers put the octopuses ‘in a beaker containing a liquified version of the drug’ according to National Geographic, they exhibited significantly more social behaviour?

    ‘Particularly telling, said scientist Gul Dolen, was that after being returned to their tanks at Woods Hole Oceanographic Institute in Massachusetts, the octopuses went on to reproduce.’ 

    During the Q&A after Annie and Michael’s lecture the pair were asked about giving MDMA to animals. After all, dogs are given anti-depressants. When I got my own chance to talk to them, I celebrated group ceremonial use of the ecstasy sacrament in the form of our rave culture then made a bad taste joke about giving MDMA to our pets hadn’t gone nearly as well. Now we know to shove them in a beaker of it.

    ’At no point did the octopuses ink, which would be a sign of stress,’ Dr Dolan told Nat Geo in response to all of our ethical concerns. 

  • Inner space of safety

    Inner space of safety

    Medical
    Medical

    MDMA boasts striking therapeutic properties beyond increased connection

    Chemical X , ‘Spectrum’
    Chemical X , ‘Spectrum’

    “I believe MDMA is the ideal drug for psychotherapy,” says non-nonsense Awakn founder and trauma expert Dr Ben Sessa.

    The exciting bits are MDMA triggers a ‘oxytocin-dependent reopening’ of a ‘social reward learning critical period’. It puts your brain in the state of early childhood and adolescence, when it establishes key neural pathways. The hypothesis is that dysfunctional thought patterns can be adjusted in this state.

    MDMA increases pre-frontal cortex activity like an ADHD stimulant, lowers activity in the amygdala ‘fear centre’ deep in the reptile brain, and is notable for its relationship to both dopamine and serotonin. It creates an ‘optimal level of arousal’ that is neither too little nor too much for the brain to process its thoughts and instincts. 

    Added neuroplasticity helps memories reconsolidate so patients feel safer in safe settings, for example. MDMA scored strongly on PTSD patients with dissociative symptoms who often prove the toughest to treat. Trial data was consistent across the five test sites spread globally. 

    Ecstasy was first named ‘Adam’ then ‘Empathy’

    Trial subjects previously suffered severe symptoms that had resisted regular therapeutic treatment for many years.

    ‘MDMA was invented for shellshocked soldiers’ is a trope I may be guilty of falling for. It wasn’t an appetite suppressant either when patented by Merck in 1914. Forensic research into the German pharmaceutical firm suggests a humbler origins for the love drug as merely a stepping-stone towards developing an alternative to hydrastinine, used to prevent internal bleeding particularly in the uterus.

    The military nonetheless had it knocking around for whatever reason in the 1950s around the first time scientists tested MDMA on humans and recorded the results. These soon reached the keen ears of Alexander Shulgin, who says he first synthesised it in 1965. It was originally named ‘Adam’, and also ‘Empathy’. 

    Patients during MDMA-AT are given 125mg of what the subculture renamed ‘ecstasy’ with up to 75mg of booster. Apocryphally, a friend who took part in an Imperial MDMA trial said it was hella strong.

  • Let them know it’s Saturnalia time

    Let them know it’s Saturnalia time

    In te gr at io n
    In te gr at io n

    Heal the world from collective trauma says Thomas Hubl

    2022’s Medicine Festival in the UK
    2022’s Medicine Festival in the UK

    My journalism network brother Matt Green is the author of Aftershock: fighting War, Surviving Trauma and Finding Peace (New Statesman: ‘Outstanding’, Spectator: ‘A work of integrity and substance’, TV’s Bear Grylls: ‘Compelling, humbling and inspiring’).

    He examines collective trauma in his new blog Resonant World – and ways to heal it. Like the UK’s Medicine Festival whereupon he has hence returned. 

    “I’m going to sound too idealistic and starry-eyed about what is basically a fun gathering in a field,” Matt reports, “But a core part of me knows I came away feeling more peaceful, grounded and inspired than when I arrived — and I’ve learned to trust that felt-sense more than my fear of sounding naive.”

    Matt, who’s on the environment beat for Reuters right now, worked as a war correspondent in Iraq and Afghanistan. He spoke on the launch address call for The Collective Trauma Summit 2022 (oh yes), cooked up by guru Thomas Hubl author of Healing Collective Trauma. Which features basically everyone from the wonderful world of 21st century wellbeing. 

    “Trauma on a personal level is energy, on a collective level it’s a storm,” says Hubl, who talks about activating our ‘collective immune system.’ He maintains “it’s an important function of collective health and if we don’t even have it, that’s a sign of our health.”

    Matt addressed journalism’s part in mankind’s burnout. “The media is frozen, reporting what’s ‘out there’ as if it’s on a glass screen, stuck in a psychic sludge,” says the father of two married to a children’s therapist, “we’re ‘looking at broken glass through broken glass’ to borrow Thomas’ own phrase.”

    Us media scum need unconditional loving too, says Matt: “That’s true of journalists as much as the rest of us who were born into this traumatised society. Journalists are recognising they need to be healing themselves as individuals, having perhaps been part of environments that encourage trauma-causing behaviours. Clinging to the notion that objectivity could protect us, was a fiction.”

    When Sunday Times suits wouldn’t sign off heroic war reporter Marie Colvin’s expenses, hacks left a cow’s eyeball on the accounts desk in reference to the eye Colvin lost to a rocket propelled grenade blast while covering the Sri Lankan civil war in 2001 (it gave her PTSD). She sported her signature eye patch thereafter.

    Driven on by her own unique quest for homeostasis, Colvin died reporting under news blackout from the siege of Homs in 2012 when her building was hit by Syrian artillery.

    “Journalism can be a form of healing too though,” says Matt.

    Decorated foreign correspondent Dean Yates was shattered by PTSD after two of his team were killed by an Apache gunship crew. Wikileaks dug up pilot cam footage that made for difficult viewing. Yates beat himself up further for not making enough of a storm with it. Eventually he was admitted to a psychiatric ward.

    Now, Yates talks about his experience at edgy institutions. He and Reuters set up a blog site and mini-community where burnt-out broadcasters and wobbly world-slingers could exhume a bit of trauma by banging out some posts. 

    “Slowly the culture started to change a little,” says Matt, “I’m not saying there isn’t a long way to go for the media…”

    My cousin’s in Ukraine right now with the BBC. The most traumatic my journalism career ever got was when I reviewed Ian Schraeger’s new hotel and the remote for the TV in the suite didn’t work. No it wasn’t. It was when a close colleague and I were on the wrong end of a corporate ‘moral injury’ and he killed himself. 

    Not that I, he or anyone in that position was, or is, above such behaviour ourselves. Neither are we discouraged to be, like Matt points out. And we’re the lucky ones. “None of this is possible without a community system that offers support, equity and justice,” points out Matt’s fellow host on the Collective Trauma summit, heavyweight sociologist Dr Ruby Mendenhall. Her work highlights the need to address racism as a health crisis given its eventual, detrimental effects on health, lives and budgets.

    “Our own experience of trauma is not deep enough to feel deeper traumas holistically,” says Hubl of social engineering, “We provide properly; we see them as problems and patch them up with ideas. Yet there is an intensity of emotions we are not able to address.” Mendenhall’s work with communities in Illinois includes community wellbeing centres like those in Compassionate Care Frome, plus business incubators, career roadmaps and personal financial advice. 

    When not kicking ass, Medenhall dabbles in poetry. Jotting down some rhymes has sort-of neuroscientific healing properties according to the summit’s Dr Laura Calderón de la Barca: “It’s using imagination as a container for healing. Beyond words alone, elements from the future and the past can meet.” Careful or I shall be forced to publish my Burroughs-style cut-ups.

  • Kool-Aid Corner #12

    Kool-Aid Corner #12

    To finish: trippy clippings, merry pranks, and psychedelic student life

    Graph (or Fig.) of the Week

    Comparison of calcified pineal glands with ossified compact bones:

    From: Pineal Calcification, Melatonin Production, Aging. Associated Health Consequences and Rejuvenation of the Pineal Gland by Dun Xian Tan, Bing Xu, Xinjia Zhou and Russel J Reiter. Published in Molecules January 2018
    From: Pineal Calcification, Melatonin Production, Aging. Associated Health Consequences and Rejuvenation of the Pineal Gland by Dun Xian Tan, Bing Xu, Xinjia Zhou and Russel J Reiter. Published in Molecules January 2018

    My bookshelf weighs a ton

    Notable new purchases for the occult library. Strictly second hand snap-ups only. This week: The Process by Brion Gysin

    £23 fittingly. Hardcover first editions go for £1500+.
    £23 fittingly. Hardcover first editions go for £1500+.

    Naked Lunch author William Burroughs called his best friend and Dream Machine co-inventor Gysin “the only man I ever respected.” Gysin might be best known for ‘cut up technique’ a writing method used by David Bowie, Iggy Pop and Jello Biafra, much loved by English teachers. 

    The Process is a dreamlike, luscious ‘spiritual novel’ like Dune. It’s set in the desert too (sync). and a tableaux of his own soul’s development. His groovy mates have affectionate cameos in it. Gysin is said to have tutored Genesis P Orridge of Thee Temple ov Psychick Youth in the mystic arts. ‘I could easily blast so much keef night and day I become a bouhali,’ his alter ego Ulysses O Hanson, a real-gone crazy, a holy untouchable madman unto whom everything is permitted, nothing is true.”

    Next issue: MDMA therapy with the dyad who wrote the MAPS program, Annie and Dr Michael Mithoefer

  • Psilocybin for depression with Ashleigh Murphy-Beiner

    Psilocybin for depression with Ashleigh Murphy-Beiner

    My unofficial Vital Study Zine #11 with observations from Vital Psychedelic Training and recent happenings in the space

    ‘White Light’ from Paul Cocksedge Studio
    ‘White Light’ from Paul Cocksedge Studio

    “We have really explicit conversations about sex, about violence, about death and ego death…”

    Plus of course, “Paranoia, wanting to go to the toilet, feeling like you’re going to the toilet, and the physical bodily experiences,” says Ashley Murphy-Beiner, psychologist and guide at Imperial College’s landmark ‘PsiloDep 2’ trial, which sounds suitably like a Quatermass movie.

    Ashleigh Murphy-Beiner is exactly the sort of impressive individual driving the psychedelic renaissance: a mediation coach and Peruvian ceremony facilitator alongside her studies at Imperial College London, she’s noted for her research on ayahuasca for treating depression too. She’s talking about preparing psychedelic novices for their first trip on synthetic psilocybin, the active ingredient in old-fashioned magic mushrooms. It’s used mostly due to stigma around LSD.

    “We let them know we’re not going to judge them on anything weird… although they’re not going to do anything like that, because mainly they’re worried it’ll really embarrass them or, or cause shame,” she continues, giving a window into life with depression.

    Depression is a ‘global burden’. The main cause of disability and the number one reason for taking time off work affects a quarter of a billion people worldwide, and more in The West. One in six Brits are on anti-depressants, and US figures rose by up to 30% during the COVID-19 crisis. Doomongers will be pleased to know there are plenty more sad stats in this week’s ‘zine.

    Imperial College psychologist, meditation coach and ayahuasca advocate Asheligh Murphy-Beiner
    Imperial College psychologist, meditation coach and ayahuasca advocate Asheligh Murphy-Beiner

    Can psychedelics cure long term depression where talk therapy and medications failed? Although arguably still spectacular in comparison to existing treatment, results are frankly not as good as those for psychedelic studies on treating trauma, addiction, and end-of-life crisis. That’s partly because depression mostly remains a mystery, with the widely-accepted ‘serotonin imbalance’ theory recently publicly debunked. Ashleigh calls the causes “biopsychosocial” meaning there are biological, psychological and social implications. Many patients have come crashing down to Earth when faced with the cruel reality of life in late capitalism. Preparation and integration are absolutely essential, say trial patient advocates Ian Roullier and Leone Schneider of advocacy group PsyPAN. Dr Rosalind Watts created a treatment model, Acceptance, Connection and Embodiment to cover the ground between secular dystopian life and the psychedelic experience. 

    Results of psilocybin for depression trials so far though are certainly optimistic compared to market anti-depressants. A major advantage is that psychedelic treatment opens up the mind, rather than numbing out all feelings, like current anti-depressants are said to. Opportunity and relish can once more be a part of depressive’s mindset. Plus they can dump their daily regime of equally barely-understood serotonin pills with side-effects like a plummeting libido. 

    This is one subject for which there is certainly no silver bullet. Here’s Ashleigh talking about ayahuasca, and the ACE therapy model used at the trials with Dr Ros, plus the ethics of the trials and therapy itself, and rounding up the trial results on the Chasing Consciousness podcast, all of which you can see on the New Psychonaut YouTube channel.

    This week’s topics arranged along Vital’s core learning pillars are below.

    Featured



    Feed your head

    Feed your head

    Psilocybin patients “experience everything” in contrast to the emotional anaesthsia of SSRI medication.


    Freud is dead

    Freud is dead

    PsiloDep 2 used a new therapeutic model ACE devised by Drs Ros and Richards, with inspo from Stan Grof.


    A Love Unconditional

    A Love Unconditional

    Wanted: open hearts to hold space over personality disorders.


    Results Based

    Results Based

    Does psilocybin therapy for depression work, or not?


    IRL is a bummer

    IRL is a bummer

    Psychedelic integration doesn’t make for ideal water cooler chat in the office on Monday morning.


    Kool-Aid Corner #11

    Kool-Aid Corner #11

    Your regular round-up of trippy clippings, merry pranks, and psychedelic student life.

    Next issue: MAPS MDMA-AT program designers Michael and Annie Mithoefer.

  • Feed your head

    Feed your head

    Approach
    Approach

    Patients say psilocybin offers “experiencing everything” in contrast to the ennui of SSRIs

    David Shrigley, ‘Magic’. Works from Lougher Contemporary
    David Shrigley, ‘Magic’. Works from Lougher Contemporary

    Depression is a problem. One is six Brits are prescribed drugs to counter it. But still nobody knows what it is, how it works, or how to cure it. 

    This is in stark contrast to the popular narrative that ‘depression is caused by an imbalance of ‘“happiness chemical” serotonin in the brain’. The most popularly-prescribed anti-depressants ‘selective serotonin re-uptake inhibitors’ or SSRIs regulated it. Apparently. Like you might conclude by the name ‘selective’ and ‘serotonin’. Or by reading research in respected medical journal The Lancet, written by senior psychologists at Oxford and Yale; although the average depressive is more likely to get the mis-info off commercial content blogs from psychiatrists. 

    SSRIs have some worrying side-effects. Like nasty poos, even worse sleep, plus most notoriously loss of libido – which is no good if your relationship is already on the rocks because of your depression. Or your redundancy, which is a major cause of depression but not taken into account by the medical sector. Plus, the ‘medical model’ actually makes patients feel more stigma around their depression than otherwise.

    SSRI users report an ‘emotional numbness’ known medically as ‘SSRI-induced indifference’ with practical effects not dissimilar to depression itself. ‘Evidence indicates that a reduction in depressive symptoms may not be the single most important outcome to patients, but rather factors such as the ability to participate in everyday activities and return to work,’ says this British Medical Journal article from its 2020 Evidence Based Medicine special issue.

    “It was like the light switch being turned on in a dark house… [my] concrete coat had come off”

    But SSRIs do increase serotonin levels (like recreational ecstasy) although possibly reduce them long term (like recreational ecstasy). Plus – anecdotally – my close friends who are prescribed SSRIs do say “help take the edge off.” I wouldn’t want to go without my ADHD meds, which do make an enormous difference. But neither SSRIs nor my Amfexa go any way towards curing the conditions, only reducing symptoms.

    A balls-out report from UCL published only this summer, made headlines by highlighting the gap between this narrative and reality. And we know what happens when anybody does that. (Like I’m fond of quoting, in the original version of The Emperor’s New Clothes the child who points out the emperor is naked is banished to the wilderness. Not made king instead by a grateful populace, which is a modern alteration). 

    The status quo brought out its big guns. Rolling Stone, once the organ of the counter-culture, spread muck all over author Professor Joanna Moncrieff (of University College London, one of the most respected medical research centres in the world, while Rolling Stone is no longer respected as a pop music magazine, just saying) pointing out her membership of the Critical Psychiatry Network ‘Which aims to “[mount] a scientific challenge to claims about the nature and causes of mental disorder and the effects of psychiatric interventions.” Like RD Laing. Rolling Stone also drew attention to, and those of a sensitive disposition please stop reading now, her reticence for… vaccine mandates, as expressed in an open letter to the British Medical Journal from NHS workers that she signed. The real problem was that some of the shrill left’s enemies on the shrill right, like Fox News rabble-rouser Tucker Carlson, agreed with the paper. 

    I’ll stop before I get depressed. The point is: psychedelic treatment for depression counters the ‘emotional numbness’ of the condition, on or off SSRIs.

    In fact, the opposite happens. “It was like the light switch being turned on in a dark house, the concrete coat had come off,” said one PsiloDep Trial participant according to the vital presentation by Ashleigh Murphy-Beiner, a psychologist on the trials and facilitator of its dedicated ongoing integration circle. Another trial patient said: “I allow myself to experience everything, even if it’s sadness. Now I know how to deal with my feelings rather than rather than repress them.”

    Why? “Oceanic boundlessness” AKA increased connectivity, the mystical trip accompanied by profound meaning, “going beyond the self”, and resolution of emotions (it’s usually shame according to Murphy-Beiner) by mini-spiritual emergency-cum-challenging experience are the top signifiers. This is before we discuss the default mode network, neuroplasticity, or neurogenesis. The ‘inner healer’ or ‘homeostasis principle’ to use its new scientific name dispenses these as required.

    If depression can be cured by restoring powerful human instincts like connection and meaning, is it caused by a lack of them? Former narrative cheerleader yet admittedly rather good writer Johann Hari made his comeback from exile with Lost Connections: Uncovering the Real Causes of Depression – and the Unexpected Solutions (here’s the TED Talk). Therein he claimed, backed up by doctors and patients, that depression is mostly caused by our bureaucratic dystopia: “the depression of many of my friends, even those in fancy jobs – who spend most of their waking hours feeling controlled and unappreciated – started to look not like a problem with their brains, but a problem with their environments,” he writes. And well done him. Although depression is not my area, and I’m far from qualified  as a pro, it’s very tempting to agree.

    But if the problem isn’t brain chemistry but civilisation itself, isn’t sending depressives back out after psychedelic treatment into the same desperate non-life that made them so desperate in the first place just going to make them depressed again? At this point one can only make a fart joke, and nobody can get away with that better than proper brain box Dr Chris Timmerman, who tweeted this new report Understanding the effects of serotonin in the brain through its role in the gastrointestinal tract because it describes psychedelics as ‘cognitive laxatives’.

  • Freud is dead

    Freud is dead

    Therapy
    Therapy

    ‘ACE’ is a new therapeutic approach devised by Drs Ros and Richards, with inspo from Stan Grof

    ‘Icosahedron’ by Anthony James from Unit London
    ‘Icosahedron’ by Anthony James from Unit London

    Freud is Dead. And we have killed him.

    My loose understanding of the gossip in the ivory towers of psychology is that Freudian psychoanalysis maintains an iron grip on legitimacy. 

    This seems to have crumbled almost overnight like empires do. Psychoanalysis’ spiritual home The Tavistock Clinic has been rocked by scandal. And Imperial College didn’t use psychoanalysis as such in PsiloDep 2. Because it’s only been an initial part of psychedelic therapy as documented by Stanislav Grof. 

    Indeed Grof’s former colleague, TV’s Dr Bill Richards who’s still kicking it himself at John Hopkins (and on Netflix) advised on Acceptance, Connection and Embodiment (ACE) therapy, the model applied by Imperial College in its landmark trials testing psilocybin against a market SSRI anti-depressant.

    “The trials followed a standard psychedelic psychedelic therapy format: preparation, the high dose, and then integration alongside an Acceptance and Commitment Therapy [ACT] adapted model,” relays Ashleigh. 

    ACT is a kind-of proactive mindfulness to encourage ‘psychological flexibility’ an adaptive mindset resilient to stressful events. The psychological flexibility model or PFM is referred to in the title of Dr Ros’ stealth bomber of a paper, The use of the psychological flexibility model to support psychedelic assisted therapy which points out the approach is in use in trials at NYU and Yale, too.

    And guess what? Everyone prefers it to being told stuff in the past they were doing their best to forget has ruined both their present and future, so it’s going to cost them £200 a week. Plus, ACT’s explanatory infographic is a freaking icosahedron, the sacred geometric form that’s like a 20-sided Dungeons & Dragons dice.

    Acceptance and commitment therapy’s ‘hexaflex’ graph
    Acceptance and commitment therapy’s ‘hexaflex’ graph

    ACT is empirically proven in all of these tests we’re beginning to think will be endless, and approved by EG the NHS.

    “It’s a very complex experience that people are going through. So we’re using lots of different influences”

    But because ACT’s not Freudian analysis, it gets crap from the old guard. Seems like nobody cares what they think any more, though, because their way hasn’t worked, except for them. And they gave kids gender reassignment.

    That’s not all. “As clinicians, we were drawing on a lot of different psychological theories to support people because it’s a very complex experience that people are going through. So we’re using lots of different influences,” says Ashleigh.

    ACE is Dr Rosalind ‘Ros’ Watts’ remix of ACT. It even has P-ACE (for preparation) and I-ACE (for integration). It includes aspects of polyvagal theory, lived experience and non-dual thinking to name but two.

    And there’s even deferral to the inner healer or ‘homeostatic instinct’ to give it its new scientific name in ACE. Metaphors employed for the healing process include ‘diving for pearls’ illustrated by specially prepared visualisers. Plus, let’s not forget, a new ambient John Hopkins’ LP bespoke-made for the trials.

    “We’re asking people to open up to emotional pain at a pace they may never have experienced”

    Stan Grof says psychoanalysis was useful for the earliest stages of treating in-patients, but soon gave way to even more fundamental realms of the psyche – and body – that required knowledge not only of cutting-edge thinkers.

    “I wonder how possible it is to grasp”

    He names William Reich for perinatal matrix III when the body spasms start (not seen many of those on the course yet) and Jung in his Red Book days, but the ‘transpersonal’ (IE weird), plus theology, literature and philosophy too.

    “We invite them to tap into a sense that there may be wisdom and guidance to be learned from emotional pain, and difficult experiences in life,” says Ashleigh. There’s practical considerations that don’t come up in that room your therapist has in Finsbury Park with the knitted throws and knackered dreamcatcher on the ceiling.

    “We’re asking people to open up to emotional pain, to an extent, and at a pace they may never have experienced before,” says Ashleigh, “I wonder how possible it is to grasp. We wrangled over what we tell people beforehand, so they can make an ethical and informed decision about taking part in a treatment like this.”

    ‘Must we ourselves become gods simply to appear worthy of it?’ opined Nietzsche upon his most famous line, ‘God is dead.’ The firebrand philosopher meant a sense of shared, guiding ideology rather than the monotheistic biblical concept of God.

    He was mostly right, because us stupid normies did come up with a new God – science. The bits of that which considered our relationships to each other, so the only ones that counted, originated from Sigmund Freud, and Richard Dawkins via Charles Darwin.

    The new anti-religion preached a mirror image of historical spirituality: humans were essentially chimpanzees, except cleverer, so even more unpleasant to each other.

    Arts, achievement, compassion, shared laughter… all just tactics in the game to get ahead. Beneath it all we were just throwing our turds at each other, and pretending not to enjoy getting screwed by the alpha male.

    Who hasn’t been seduced by this perverse science at some point? Especially on cocaine, like Sigmund Freud was half the time. 

    Eventually though it gets… depressing.

  • A Love Unconditional

    A Love Unconditional

    Space
    Space

    Wanted: open hearts to hold space over borderline personality disorder

    From ‘ Dappled Light ’ by Rana Begum showing till September 2022 at Ptizhanger Manor and Gallery
    From ‘ Dappled Light ’ by Rana Begum showing till September 2022 at Ptizhanger Manor and Gallery

    If there’s a subject in mental health that’s lively as psychedelics, it’s borderline personality disorder or BPD. Things got even stormier when the two got together. 

    Or rather, didn’t. Psychedelic hierophant, Imperial College’s Dr Robin Carharrt Harris ruled personality disorder sufferers out of psilocybin trials in the earliest stages of reporting. Interpersonal relationship issues might prevent these voyagers achieving a necessarily productive therapeutic relationship with their guides, hindering ‘letting go’ to the experience. 

    Asked about respite for personality disorder sufferers in the Vital Q&A about her work at Imperial College with psilocybin, Ashleigh declares she certainly hopes so. She highlights a courageous academic appeal by Toronto’s Rick Zeifman, and Anne Wagner of the city’s Remedy clinic, on the subject.

    The paper notes how clinically-proven effects of psychedelics, like increased mindfulness, a clearer sense of identity and behaviour, healing addictions and a reduction in suicidal tendencies line up neatly with BPD’s issues. The impressive doc proposes possible treatment angles including dialectal behaviour therapy (DBT) a socratic method invented for BPD, plus transference-based therapy (big up the space holders there). It also cites a bunch of examples where BPD symptoms were markedly improved by psychedelic treatment: MDMA looks like the front-runner for medical modality, but Swiss researchers say many came to them seeking LSD treatment for narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) in the late 80s and 90s with no major reported issues. Say what you like about them, but anyone turning up for LSD therapy saying “I’m a massive abusive narcissist, please help me” has done their shadow work. Moreover, just recently doctors in Basel claimed success when treating a complex personality disorder with LSD and MDMA. “This decision was not taken lightly,” reads the abstract.

    There’s currently no medication for BPD but sufferers can be prescribed for co-morbidities. Savage psychological wounds, acute trauma, prompt intense abandonment fear in BPD sufferers, possibly leading to volatile and self-sabotaging behaviour. In a thoughtful article on BPD from multiple award-winning UK Cosmopolitan mag, expert Dr Dawn Starley levels it all out by reminding smartphone shrinks that by no means all personality disorder sufferers are disruptive. Moreover, any perceived cruelty, mind games or violence come from a place of terror rather than sadism. Words like ‘guilty’ and ‘innocent’ are perhaps not nuanced enough (sync!) to describe a BPD court defendant (certainly a diagnosed one). And neither is, for example, ‘manipulation’, says BPD specialist Dr Susan Heitler.

    Equally, “[Partners, friends and family members] can experience feeling abused or gaslighted themselves. The negative experience for some is substantial,” she says. It’s natural to want to help a loved one in trouble. Selfishly wishing your lover would just get better is forgivable too. But the two of you are often better served by staying apart. This is non-dual acceptance at its starkest.

  • Results Based

    Results Based

    Medical
    Medical

    Does psilocybin therapy work, or not?

    Kirsten Liu Wong, ‘How Fast the Shadows Fall’
    Kirsten Liu Wong, ‘How Fast the Shadows Fall’

    Does psilocybin therapy soothe depression? The short answer is yes.

    But don’t go getting all ‘salvation fantasy’ on me now.

    Kick ass John Hopkins studies out earlier in 2022 claimed more than half of test subjects suffering from major depressive disorder were in remission (statistically cured) after treatment and a year later, after eight hours of prep (with Bill Richards, mind) and two doses, with five follow-up appointments. Which is… mind-blowing.

    Imperial’s comparison to SSRI escitalopram ‘PsiloDep 2’ ran into some IRL type stuff when the scale it used turned out to give mediocre – well, equal – results. Other scales fared far better. But symptoms returned within three to six months. Is it fair to say that “the miracle cure thing ain’t gonna stick” as Rick ‘The Strass’ Strassman laid down in his own Vital lecture? 

    “Some will want longer term therapy, to understand or change things in a way that others may not”

    Several patients went back to SSRIs. “For some people, psilocybin was very powerful,” says Vital lecturer Ashleigh Murphy-Beiner, who acted as a guide on the trials, “They’re quite okay with saying ‘that’s enough for now’. Others lived with the symptoms of depression in a new way, probably the majority, actually, did. The psilocybin brought relief.”

    NYU trial subject Court Wing defended PsiloDep 2 on Psychedelics Today, saying he “received incredible benefits – my depression of five years went completely into remission and has remained there.”

    Depression is one of humanity’s worst problems, barely understood. It’s a bit consumerist of us to think somebody’s suddenly sorted it, in such a romantic fashion. For now we can only defer to the inner healer, wish godspeed to the guides, researchers, and patients, then get our Forest Passage on.

    “The longer term option will be costly”

    From the sharp end, Ashleigh says: “I hope all options are available to people, to work very differently with the experiences that they’ve had in life. Some will want longer term therapy and really get to the roots, understand or change things in a way that others people may not.

    A shorter treatment or less intensive psilocybin therapy might be sufficient for them. I’m worried that the longer term option will only be available privately [not via the UK National Health Service], because it will be costly of treatment. And I’d really like the longer term treatment to be available at an affordable cost.”

    Thought leaders like Dr Ros evoke 12-step-esque community circles. But, Ashleigh observes, “There’ll be a push to making shorter term treatments like we have in traditional talking therapies already now, because of budgets, and funding. The people that want to resolve aspects of their mental health experiences are disadvantaged by that.”

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    Returning to everyday existence brings depression patients right back down

    Nick Cave ‘Soundsuit’ at In the Black Fantastic Hayward Gallery till September 18
    Nick Cave ‘Soundsuit’ at In the Black Fantastic Hayward Gallery till September 18

    Psychedelic integration isn’t the ideal topic for water cooler chat with your line manager on a Monday morning.

    Meditation, vegetarian diets, forest bathing and volunteering, all inspired by the cosmic visions on a magic mushroom trip. It all sounds suspiciously like hippy stuff, guaranteed to create even more disconnect between you, your news cycle-bedevilled colleagues, wine-guzzling borderline alcoholic partner, and rigid family. 

    “Most of the people I’ve worked with have had a disappointing crash. Integration is partly about managing that disappointment. You can’t separate the drug from the therapy – and the community you go back to after a session,” said Dr Ros, AKA PsiloDep 2 clinical lead Dr Rosalind Watts at Psych Symposium’s integration panel earlier this year also featuring Ian Roullier, co-founder of trial subject support and campaigning group PsyPAN. 

    “My colleagues think it’s extreme… whacky”

    PsiloDep 2 trial subjects were given 35 to 40 hours of therapy, which is more than I’ve had in my life. But costs, for a start, kept post-experience integration services light. The trial subjects’ woe prompted Dr Ros to manifest ACER, her integration platform that “involves getting into nature and a closely bonded support group, that’s saved all of us during the pandemic,” says Roullier. 

    Former international-level professional sportsman and Iboga advocate Rory Lamont was on the panel too. played rugby, a traditional contact sport that’s notorious for its conservative values. He only had the informal WhatsApp group set up by the folks on his retreat for succour. 

    “I went through some difficult challenges post experience,” he told the panel, “The connection with the medicine is just the start: we want to embody the insights but if we’re not being met by our family and friends it’s isolating and can bring back the loneliness, and the depression.”

    The new approaches his insights compelled him to take were nightmarishly distant from his existing lifestyle. “These medicines get to the root of our suffering, the trauma and disconnection from family, friends, society,” he says, “Instead we get a connection to mother nature and community, that brings about the profound healing.” After the experience is over though it’s straight back to ‘real life’, such as it is. Most of my colleagues think it’s extreme, whacky,” says Lamont.

    “The worst part is when you feel the effect fading, and you can’t access it any more”

    PsyPAN co-founder Leonie Schneider says psilocybin was “the start of a long healing process which I’m very grateful for, but it’s quite a thing to be involved in. I didn’t get the ego death, the mystical experience, and came out slightly disappointed. But I got some other, incredible things that we wren’t what I expected.” Schneider may not have been able to get those benefits without experienced integration support. 

    Ian Roulllier also took part in Compass’ psilocybin trials, where “my depression came back as soon as the drug wore off. But there was a strong focus on integration with a group centred on Maudsley Hospital [where Compass and the UK NHS public healthcare provider are building a dedicated centre in woodlands of New Bethlehem AKA ‘Bedlam’ asylum].” 

    The drugs are catalysts and require the integration to have long-term tangible effects, says Roullier. Trial subjects can’t breeze into Imperial for another heroic dose top-up, “The worst part is when you feel the effect fading, and you can’t access it any more.” 

    Although there were moments of oceanic boundlessness. 

    “The best is every now and then I check in, and just go out on the grass, and feel it under my feet,” muses Roullier, movingly and sincerely, “But I did get attacked by a swarm of wasps once. I thought, am I still tripping?”